During break some classmates &I decided to make small snowmen with what snow was left. My friend Rebekah decided to make boobies. Lol, she made me dye the nipples with my precious code red…. I know right, what a mortal sin! Lmao. I adore this chick! She & I are the only female welders in our class. Anyways…. This my dears is what kinda stood shit we do on break at school.

Rebekah and Kyle (another classmate of mine). He wanted to take a picture of him holding Rebekah’s snow boobies. Today was a good day loves.

My helmet came in, I love it!

Myself, welding SMAW

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My first and second weld EVER! I love welding!

to start the enrollment process for college next week. This Fall I’ll be well on my way to earning a ASS degree in Welding. I’m stoked. Welding is something I love and I’m good at. Thou my dream job is still to be a tattoo artist *and I will accomplish that goal as well* I enjoy welding just about the same. Going to college is a really big step for me. From time to time it doesn’t feel real. Like I’m dreaming… in a good way. 

If everything goes as I plan. A few years down the road I’ll be a under water welder. I have to thank my daughter. Honestly, if it wasn’t for her my dreams probably would have never come true. It was providing and giving her the world is what made me get the balls to just go for what I want.

Now I have but one more thing to do…. I’m not exactly looking forward to it. I can handle a lot of things and face pretty much anything/ anyone with no problem. HE is very intimidating to say the least. Pretty much the only time I feel defenseless. Eh, eventually I’ll get the balls to say something. Just not now lol ^^

Things just seem to be ok, yet not. Needless to say there is still some confusion going on in my head.  Not sure how to explain my thoughts. These day’s everything seems so scrambled. Things are a bit outta place in my world at the moment. All I can be sure of is I’ll be ok.. happy even.I’m not sure when that’ll be, but I know with out a doubt I’ll be.

It’s weird I’ve never be so certain about something that hasn’t been confirmed. Like back when I was in high school and I’d be having a REALLY bad day or my parents would tell me it get’s better. I couldn’t understand how they were so sure of something that has yet to occur. Now I know what they were so sure of back then. I firmly believe I’ll be happy.

I have a dream of providing a great life for my daughter and myself. I’ll see to it that Tegan wants for nothing. She maybe spoiled but she won’t be rotten. I dream of a home for us in the mid-west or Florida. Not sure where I want us to plant roots. I see myself in a healthy relationship with someone who understands and feels the same way I do when it comes to Tegan *in a relationship in general for that matter*. Making breakfast for the three of us. As Tegan and said “boy/girlfriend” sets up the table. We eat and clean up together. I’ll get to see Tegan off to daycare/ school. Kiss my *boy/girlfriend* bye as we head to work. I’d be either working as a underwater welder for the Navy or a  kick ass TIG (atm this is what i’m wanting to do) welder. On the way home pick Tegan up. We go home and get comfortable. We’ll prepare and cook dinner together always together. *Boy/girlfriend* joins us. We clean up together. Before putting Tegan to bed we’d watch a movie or play a game. Tuck Tegan into bed wishing her sweet dreams.. REPEAT

I plan on traveling with Tegan. Vacation all around the US. Show her the world. Hopefully when she’s older *teenager* I can take her to visit other countries. Maybe one year for Christmas we can go on a cruise together. Spend one month out of the summer with her Memaw and Papa, then two weeks with her Aunt Tenni, Uncle Justin and Cousin Charlie. Two weeks with her uncle Lucas. Or what ever lol. I want her to know even thou we *me, her dad, her grandparents, uncle’s, aunt’s and cousins* aren’t together at all times. She’ll always have family. I want her and any other child(ren) I may have to be well rounded. To respect others and most importantly themselves. 

Wanting all this and visualizing all these wonderful simple heart warming things is what let’s me know We’ll, I’ll be happy again. I WANT it so badly I can’t help but KNOW it’ll be reality. I’m a good woman and I know I’ll end up with a good man or woman lol. 

Seemingly so… will be a lived fact. :)